“Everything I need to learn, I learned in kindergarten”. Bullshit! Everything I need to learn I learned when I graduated. I learned that in life it’s either you get eaten or be eaten (sounds kinky hehehe). They should have prepared us to be warriors in kindergarten. Learned how to fight. They should have thought us the secrets on how not to get affected by the people that was born to be bitches and bastard. To stand up and go for the kill and feel nothing after.
Being brutal is a thing that should have been instilled in the minds of the people. Because kindness suffocates us, it suppresses our emotions. It makes us weak and it kills us. Hiding things from us just to protect us but in the end when you learned the truth it is much more very (all the superlative hehehe) painful. They should have thought us how to block and counter attack. And the counter attack should be deadly. I grew up always being nice trying not to hurt other people feelings but in the end you are the one who carries the burden. I hope I know some martial arts. I have a hidden passion to learn how to throw a knife and hitting the target in the heart.
I don’t like to be nice anymore, you get taken for granted. But I can’t help it, It’s already part of my skin. No matter how bitchy I tried I can’t remove the sugar and spice and everything nice. I wish that there is a chemical "X" that you can take just like the power puff girls so you can have the power to defeat people or a potion that will turn you to Mr. Hyde.
I also would like to say things to people that is playing in my mind and don’t feel guilty about it. I want to be crazy so I can have an excuse to be bitchy. Slowly I’m feeling burned out. Getting tired. I’m tired of listening to other people and wish that sometimes they listen to me and take me seriously and ask me if I'm okay and really mean it.
THINGS I HATE!
I hate people who likes shortcuts I feel everyone is equal they should go the right way. I hate people who are corrupt and try to make money from you. I hate people that pretends they are listening but the don't. I hate interrupters and won’t let me finish my thoughts it makes me feel disrespected. I hate "know it all people" it makes me feel stupid. I hate it when people corrects my grammar because I feel conscious and end up mixing my words and thoughts. I hate people who doesn’t know how to appreciate it makes me feel worthless. I hate perfectionist because nobody is perfect. I hate my life because it’s like a series of unfortunate events come to life and I feel I'm losing control. I hate people who doesn’t answer text messages there’s no excuse for it. I hate people who doesn’t have time for me because I am always available when they need me. I hate it when I feel down and I feel there’s no one to talk too. I hate people who competes with your problem saying there are more unfortunate and there are more unfortunate people than me.
Wow that's relieving, sarap! try nyo! hehehe
disclaimer : minsan lang to pagbigyan niyo na, If you think I'm a bitch or plastic this blog is successful in stirring up your emotions.hahaha I know you feel the same way too.
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