"People who cannot invent and reinvent themselves must be content with borrowed postures, secondhand ideas, , fitting in instead of standing out. "
- Warren G.Bennisa
"Are you ready to jump?" as the queen of reinvention Madonna said in her song "jump". This is the thought that is running in my mind while writing this blog. But come to think of it I have already jumped. Jumped into the idea of reinventing myself. hehehe You might be wondering why I am writing about this. I have read from an article that you have to write it down and announce it to your friends so that you have a motivation. That you will be under the scrutiny of other people.
These past few weeks a lot of my regular chatmates for some reason has disappeared from the circulation. Thus, I have nothing left to do. I decided to reinvent myself. I want to look good. Meaning I wanted to loose weight again. "Again", because I have tried so many times to loose weight but eventually failed. What's the difference now you might ask? Downelink has opened my eyes. Because a lot of the people in downelink looked really good and to get hooked you have to be an eyecandy. Funny but true. Light travels faster than sound ... where did that came from? hahaha. Some of them have inspired me to do my share. Two of the guys I have chatted here used to be overweight as in obese! But now they look really good eventhough they say they are still fat, you know who you are guys. Anorexics! Joking! Hehehe love you guys!
Anyway, I have started dieting and going to the gym last week of July. You might be wondering if there are any progress so far. Hmmm a brief history, My last attempt to lose weight started October 2006, and I stopped last February of 2007. From 260 I shed off 31 lounds, My Last weight was 228. I got frustrated because my weight lost went to a plateau meaning I was not losing weight anymore. I tried depriving myself, did all crazy diet stuff so that the weighing scale would move down. Then It went out of control, I got depressed and ate my regular comfort food, carbs and fats that is. Then My birthday came and I realized that another year has passed and still I haven't achieved my goal weight again which is 150lbs, Imagine I need to loose 110 lbs all in all, that's like a whole human being hehehe. Do you see my frustration? hehehe I decided to get with the program again. I checked my weight last week of July and I got 238 lbs, I gained 10 lbs, Ponyeta! Talk about yoyo dieting right? hehehe
I started to lessen my carbo intake, lessen the rice, lessen the breads, lessen the pastas ... all those good stuffs. It's really hard. There are even nights that I can't sleep. It's like withdrawal from drugs ... the difference is carbo, I need to do a study on that if carbo is addictive hehehe. I also did crazy shits just to jump start the weight lost, I won't elaborate on that. After a week I was able to manage to lessen my it, then I stop the carbo intake, talk about cold turkey! I shifted to meat and veggies. I ate all the meat and veggies that I want. I notice that the results were slow. I decided to lessen my food intake but did frequent eating. I notice that the weight lost walloped and I was getting the hang of it. I returned to the gym once or twice a week. I'll be increasing that slowly. I exercise by myself at home. My muscles hurts, I thought I never had them but turns out I'm not all fat hahaha. I'm feeling better now. I'm getting enough sleep and some of my clothes that I wore when I was 228 started to fit again.
I wanted to stop smoking but it's hard. I'll get through that, I'll think of a way.
I started to take care of my skin as part of the reinvention. I learned it from some of my downelink friends. A week ago I had warts removal for my face and neck. It was terribly painful! My skin has almost cleared except for this humongous wound on my nose, remnants of the wart removal. I can't help myself. I always scratch it and it always bleed. I was suppose to go back for checkup but I decided I would go back after the wound clears up. I'll be doing some peeling shits, maybe I'll elaborate it in my next blog.
Now for the good part. Yesterday (August 15), I went to the gym to attend a group exercise. I weighed myself and guess what? Drum roll please! I already lost 14 lbs! This weight lost is getting addictive. It entails a lot of hard work but it's part of the reinvention. Hopefully by November I have already reach 180 lbs and early next year I wish that I have reached my ultimate goal, the 150 lbs goal hehehe.
